Ramblings and Fears

I hope I have enough variety in my posts to keep my followers’ interests. I worry about that. Get over myself right? It’s pure anxiety, if anxiety was a drug you’d totally want to buy from me.

I love Christmas time because I get to write everyone cards telling them how much I love them. It’s the one time a year it’s not odd to come out and express it out of the blue. I’ve said before how hard it is to express myself to my family especially about how much I love them and how often I think about them and how much I want to be equally as loved. It’s often the same with my friends but I’m tenfold more open with them than I am with my family.

I keep getting stuck in caves on Victory Road (in Pokémon Y) and it’s horrifically annoying. Caves are the only place I get lost. Throw me in the winding forest and I’m cool, toss me in a tundra and I’ll figure it out, put me in a cave even with all the lights on and BAM you got me.

This morning driving to work I turned the radio off. It was annoying me. Usually I always flood the car with music, but not today. I had so much on my mind I had my own little radio talk show so to speak running it’s course.

There’s still some hope left for getting into the lab course I need to graduate. Aside from the family pressure and the tuition money I would be okay trying to get a full time job as long as I could get INSURANCE (there’s a group home in the city I’d love to work for with or without my Bachelor’s which does offer health insurance – which I need to live, like…literally) for a semester. However, in the end I’d rather finish up and get the hell out of there. Agoraphobia ruined 2 years of my life and had a deep impact on school which has set me back. It’s irritating to some degree to see the rest of my family succeed when I’m so behind and I’m the eldest. But that’s just being mad at myself. We’ll find out tomorrow about lab and my near future.

I made a couple new friends in school, one in particular I’ve talked to on facebook for a little (yesterday) and she even invited me to a Halloween party this Saturday. That means we actually like each other…and that scares me. I have one really good friend I met through school, and getting to know her was easy, we both ended up being bipolar and we both thought each other was hilarious. This new girl and I are pretty chill and had a great conversation, but for me the worst part of new friendships is that ‘getting to know each other’ stage. I don’t know how to get to know someone other than be like ‘So…let’s uhh get to know each other.” It’s really rather awkward, and even if I don’t give off the impression, I feel pretty awkward a lot of the time. Overall I’m glad to jump out of my comfort zone and make a new friend. It even pushes me to connect more with some of my other good friends so I don’t end up totally isolating myself like I get in the habit of…and jumping out of my comfort zone in one area tends to bleed over into others.

I went out by myself and got lunch yesterday. It was a terrifying experience but I got through it and had a nice sandwich and soup.

Oh to be OCD and Bipolar. Thank God the drugs (for now) are working as hard as they can since I can’t afford therapy.

Adventures in Pokemon Y

My lineup as of right now consists of:

Floette

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Ivysaur

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Amaura

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Frogadier

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Pikachu

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Furfrou

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As far as my commentary on the lineup, I’m just surprised how strong my Furfrou is for a normal Pokemon, and how CUTE my fairy is. I think the fairy Pokemon are great, and Floette may be one of the cutest Pokemon they’ve ever created.

Psychic Pokemon seem not to be to overpowered in Pokemon Y. I was surprised to get a Pikachu practically off the bat. I don’t think I’ve played seriously with a Pikachu since Pokemon Blue. It’s really refreshing and nostalgic to run into some of the original 150 Pokemon, especially since I haven’t interacted with most of them since Pokemon Snap or Pokemon Colosseum. Throwing back to that era is awesome in this game, so are the graphics and the SPEED. No need to hold down the B button because you get roller skates off the bat, a bike later in the game and it’s almost a little too speedy when you’re trying to stop to talk to another trainer. The global trade system is a little goofy as you can put anything up for trade and you’re taking your chances as to what you’re going to get. I put up a level four something or other that I snagged as my first catch in global trade and got a Pikachu just going to show that no one is putting in anything worth much.

Not having to run back to the lab to get my fossil Pokemon was a great feeling. Handing it over I expected to be told to come back but instead it came right back as an Amaura. I kind of did that decision in the dark. Part of me wanted to look up what my choices would be but there’s always a little fun in the coin flip anyways. The full spread exp share is great, and though I keep cycling my Pokemon to make sure they’re all approximately the same level, I don’t need to worry AS much keeping my team on the same page.

I nearly caught an Eevee and after that failure my heart broke a little. I still don’t have a fire Pokemon and I was hoping to evolve that sucker into one. I just got my second gym badge and there’s seriously so much junk to do in between gyms now. The lore is great too and you can shop for clothes and accessories. The most I’ve done is get myself a pair of pink high tops to match my hat, but I really enjoy the mechanic. There seem to be a lot of darker skinned (at least, dark for Pokemon) people in the game, and you have the option to be one yourself. You can either be slightly dark skinned, or the normal ghost white blonde, or slightly less blonde whitey, all with the same face. They’re taking steps in the right direction for customization at least. Not that it’s a huge necessity for the game but it is nice to have options. The clothing option is their biggest effort and I do enjoy it. So far I’ve collected berries but haven’t run into any mixing stations, Pokemon contests, or accessories for them.

I do HATE that you can’t screencap during the game the way you can in Animal Crossing for instance, but there are pre-arranged photo spots where you call over a guy who takes your picture. You can mess with the lighting, the focus, and the rest of the composition which is surprising to the extent they threw those details in there and you may also TIP him. You can tip a few different characters in the game and though I normally don’t (sorry Pokepeople I’m a cheap-o) I think it’s an…interesting option.

So far those are my Pokemon adventures! I they were of some interest to you fine bloggers.

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Coffee Time!

“Coffee Time!” Mr. Yang says when he brings me a styrofoam cup of hotel coffee. Our limo company is based out of a hotel so the coffee is free, it just tastes like soap water. Based on that, David, another one of the drivers, regardless of if I have coffee already brings me a large McDonald’s coffee. In exchange, I give him preference of the orders he’d rather do. He’s picky in the first place, and I appreciate the coffee so it’s the least I can do.

Yesterday Chris and I went shopping. We took pictures and Snapchatted our friends (Snapchat is an awesome app which allows you to take pictures or mini videos and send them to your friends with the app, the only catch is that the pictures only open for 3-10 seconds depending on your settings then they’re gone forever unless you take a screenshot). Chris tried on Halloween masks and I took a picture of some colored yeti’s in a Ragstock (it’s like a chain thrift store). I got a pair of pixel sunglasses while we were there and I bought Chris a white and red striped “Waldo” shirt that he can wear for Halloween. I also bought a hand sanitizer (full size “Sweet Pea”) from Bath and Body Works for the office.

Shopping was fun, I normally don’t buy myself much when we go on excursions like that, but I did get myself the new Pokémon which I’ve hardly played and am still getting used to the new mechanics, but am enjoying. I started with the water frog pokemon and gave it a nickname. I always give my starter pokemon a nickname, and perhaps my legendary one, but no one else!

Being back at work, even though I don’t work full time, is difficult this morning because I’m so tired. I have 2 and a half more cups of coffee at my disposal right now, which will hopefully get me through four o’clock. Every hour I celebrate the time closer to when I get to leave, I assume other people do the same, it’s just harder when you’re not moving around, sitting at a desk, staring at a screen, so today a lot of etsy/themed posts are going to go up to kill time and to entertain my guests (those who visit my blog).

I hope you’ve enjoyed peeking into my life this week.

#I’dLikeToCosplayAs

I like a lot of shows, and anime, and everyone deep down thinks they would be good at cosplaying SOMEONE! I’ve narrowed what characters ‘call me’ to cosplay, and that I would want to. Today. 2/28/13. I wouldn’t be able to pull any of these off though until/unless I had the time and money to do it right. That’s that difference between American and Japanese cosplayers…mostly, heh.

Kagura Tennozu 

of Speed Grapher (Anime: This anime, and Monster I saw in the same period of 6 months back to back to back and was just overwhelmed by how amazing they were).

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Esther Blanchett

of Trinity Blood (Anime)

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Dany Targaryen 

of George R.R. Martin’s series A Song of Ice and Fire

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Saya

of Blood+ (Anime)

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Diva

of Blood+ (Anime)

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Edward Scissorhands

It would be something awesome like this chick did (below).

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A Team Rocket Grunt

of Pokemon (Anime/Video Game)

Squid Girl

of Squid Girl

Leela

of Futurama (Cartoon)

and Moka

of Rosario + Vampire (Anime, either version, maybe both at once! Always room for creativity)